Knowing Your Worth & When to Walk Away

Like many women, I myself have been guilty of this in past relationships. You hold on long past the relationship’s expiration date hoping that something will change, but all the waiting often leads to disappointment. Now let me qualify this by stating that this post is not meant to disrespect men. I absolutely adore men, and I do believe deeply that love and relationships can be lasting with the right person. For me, this is more about knowing your value as a woman and holding on to your dignity in love and life in general.

Knowing Your Worth

As women, many of us tend to act as caregivers and nurturers and this is a beautiful thing. We are used to giving love and affection to those around us whether that person is a child, friend, family member, husband, or lover. I myself thrive off of caring for others, but the problem arises when we begin putting everyone else’s needs before our own. Although tempting, especially in the butterfly-ridden, early stages of a relationship, don’t neglect your friends and hobbies for a man. This will only leave you feeling unfulfilled and unhappy.

Of course you want to make time for someone you care for, but just remember to make time for the other wonderful things that make you, YOU. I love adventure, hiking and trying new things I am afraid of and I enjoy spending some time alone. These are a few of the things that make me beautifully who I am, just as you have things that make you beautifully you. My supportive friendships with the other women in my life are also a big part of who I am as a woman. Spending time with my friends lifts me up and makes me a better human being.

Chances are that many of these things are exactly what made you attractive to someone in the first place. So in giving those things up, you are throwing away a very alluring and valuable piece of yourself. I also recognize that my time and attention are just as important as any one else’s and if my time is not respected then I just simply stop giving that person attention – this goes for any relationship (friendship, love, etc.). Save your dignity and refuse to beg for someone’s attention – it won’t work anyways (trust me I have tried).

The point is you are valuable, you are loving and you are beautiful. You simply need to find that person who sees these qualities you possess and understands that these gifts are precious.

When to Walk Away

Men are different creatures that I will never claim to completely understand. However, they are human just as we are, and will sometimes make mistakes and fail. It is okay to give good men the space to make mistakes. I can only hope to be shown the same grace in a healthy relationship. Some men also just need space and don’t know how to ask for it without hurting a woman’s feelings – space they should respectfully be given.

In the past I have been inclined to worry (there’s my anxiety kicking in) and ask what’s wrong and overthink everything until I have driven myself completely crazy. I know that I cannot be the only one who has done this in relationships. Recently, I have made a commitment to myself. I don’t take things personally until someone makes it personal. If someone is too busy for me or needs space, I simply give it to them and make time for all the wonderful things that I love. Sometimes men and women need alone time and you should allow a person to have that. My life is full and I don’t need someone to complete me, but if a man can add value and join me for a beautiful ride then amazing! That being said you can not control someone else’s actions and they are not a reflection of your worth as a woman. Sometimes it isn’t about you at all, it’s about fulfilling their own needs.

The problem is knowing when a relationship has crossed into unhealthy territory. As I mentioned, we all need space to ourselves and time for our own hobbies and friendships. That being said, if a man can not find any space for you on his calendar then don’t take it personally and don’t push for attention (again, save your dignity). Pull back and focus on you. Trying to force something that doesn’t fit is unhealthy for both people involved. You have too many amazing things going on in your life to focus all of your attention on someone who isn’t willing to be there.

I have held on to some relationships in the past where I gave everything I had of myself, but was not made a priority in any way. This will never change and sticking around is degrading, disheartening and disappointing. I held on because my hopelessly romantic heart thought that if I loved harder and gave more then they would see my value. I am here to tell you, I have tested this theory and it DOES NOT work. Forgive them, move on and focus on yourself. Make room in your life in case the right person comes along.

A woman is not defined by her relationship status, a woman is uniquely defined by what sets her apart and reflects the beauty inside of her soul. I am currently single and dating. This does not define me, as it does not define you. I am a career-driven, family-oriented, loving, daughter, sister, dog mom, and friend. I crave adventure, need time outdoors, and time for reflection. These things make me the woman I am. Focus on your relationship with yourself and the rest will fall into place the way it is meant to, but don’t force things to fit. Just let them go.

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Alone Time – A How To Guide

Learning to enjoy your own company can be more challenging than most realize, but finding contentment with your own company can also provide a sense of peace and empowerment. Doing things on your own, as trivial as it sounds, can often be intimidating and out of an individual’s comfort zone.

This is something I had to learn to do the hard way. Nearly 3 years ago I moved from my small, comfortable hometown of Owensboro, KY to Louisville. Although Louisville isn’t a huge city, it is much larger than where I am from and needless to say I was a bit intimidated. The first year was pretty rough, as I had gone through a recent break up and didn’t really have a group of friends here yet. As challenging as that first year was (and there were many homesick, teary-eyed nights), it was probably the most transformative year of my life, as I learned to be truly independent.

This is not the “I moved out of Mom & Dad’s independence” – but the I am comfortable and happy with my own company kind of independence. My experience with forced solitude pushed me out of my comfort zone and challenged me to do things on my own without companionship, which in turn gave me an amazing feeling of empowerment. This period of time has also pushed me to look inwardly at the things I like about myself, as well as the things I need to improve upon.

So with that I wanted to share that from my experience, the best way to learn to be alone is to just push yourself to try new things and see what you learn. Here is a list of a few of my favorite alone time activities:

  1. Enjoy a spa day getting a manicure/pedicure.
  2. Go buy yourself an outfit that makes you feel beautiful.
  3. Enjoy a picnic at a park under a nice shade tree.
  4. Read a book.
  5. Plant a garden, or if you don’t have a yard plant some potted plants.
  6. Go for a bike ride – if you don’t have one, rent one.
  7. Volunteer to walk the dogs at your local animal shelter.
  8. Volunteer your time to a local charity you’re passionate about.
  9. Grab your camera and go take interesting pictures around town.
  10. Learn to cook a new dish.
  11. Spend the day hiking in nature.
  12. Take yourself to a nice dinner at a new restaurant.
  13. Organize your closet and drawers.
  14. Learn a new skill (photography, sewing, cooking – there are classes in every town if you look).
  15. Take a yoga class.
  16. Make time for exercise and join a gym.
  17. Go on a road trip to a nearby town.
  18. Join a group to meet new people (I joined the Junior League of Louisville).
  19. Take yourself to see a new movie at the theater.
  20. Make time for journaling.
  21. Spend some time meditating.
  22. Make up a dance – if your home alone there’s no one there to judge you lol.
  23. Think of a random act of kindness and then go do it to make someone’s day.
  24. Go to the farmer’s market – there’s one in every town.
  25. Clean out your refriderator.
  26. Spend a day nesting in bed watching your favorite Netflix series.
  27. Explore your local public library.
  28. Enjoy a day at a local art, history or science museum.
  29. Visit a local tourist hot spot that you’ve never been to – here in Louisville it’s bourbon tours!
  30. Make a list of personal goals.
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My Changing Body – Another Uncomfortable Topic

For the sake of staying on track and sharing every uncomfortable issue with everyone under the sun, let’s discuss the changes that happen to women (overnight) once you enter your 30’s.

I am healthier and more appreciative of my body than ever, so what the hell is this crap!

Throughout my teens and 20’s I abused my body in ways I would now find unimaginable. I am ashamed to say I drank too much, stayed out too late, even occasionally smoked cigarettes (a thought that now makes me gag beyond belief). There were even times where I would obscenely binge on Taco Bell and Dairy Queen (oh God… the things I would do for a cookie dough Blizzard) with basically ZERO consequences. If I even entertain the thought I eating that way now, I would suddenly gain 20 pounds!

 

Throughout my teens I actively participated in dance and cheerleading, and consistently stayed on the very low end of the BMI chart, partially from training and partially good genetics. As many women often do, I took my body for granted and even nitpicked my body for no reason whatsoever. I had no idea the changes that would happen as soon as I celebrated that 30th Birthday two years ago!

I now enjoy staying active (especially hiking, climbing & yoga), and cooking is a hobby for me so I prepare dinner at home most nights and prep most of my lunches for the week. Even with those healthy changes the days of wearing size 4 dresses and crop tops are gone; instead I have to learn to honor my womanly body with all its curves, and what at one time I viewed as imperfections. I have boobs and a booty and when I am not eating right a little belly too. I am by no means overweight, but am definitely not the size I used to be and I am slowly becoming accepting of that fact – you could even say happy about it.

I am healthier today than I have ever been. Every day I try to be grateful for my body – it takes me on beautiful adventures, allows me to dance, play, run, and hike. I try to be conscientious of what I put into my body (forgoing the excessive late nights and things that go with that). I try not to pick on myself and really focus on not speaking negatively of other women because I really hope to be a source of encouragement for others. We all have “flaws” and we all harshly compare ourselves to others, but lovingly accepting ourselves and others brings a sense of solidarity and peace – even if it is total CRAP that I bust my ass with half the results of the girl I was in my early 20’s lol.

 

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